Shit On A Stick

I've been having a lot of thoughts I really shouldn't be having. I don't know why though. I've been thinking about bad things. That sounds so retarded. But it's true. I have a good life. So why do I keep wondering how? Is it because of the book I've read? Is it because I actually want to? I don't know. I really don't know. I can't talk to anyone about it because all they'd ask is why. They wouldn't want to help or anything. They'd just want to know and I wouldn't be able to tell them because I don't even know. This particular entry is very repetitive. But it's what's going on inside of my head. Asdfghjkl;