Remember That? I Do. And Want To Return.

If you have Myspace then you've probably seen those "You Know You're A 90's Kid..." bulletins that seem to pop up almost randomly at times.  The things that include: You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE!", You just cant resist finishing this... "Iiiin west Philadelphia born and raised...", You remember TGIF on ABC. Step by Step, Family Matters, Dinosaurs, and Boy Meets World, You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school, You remember reading "Goosebumps," You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school. Personally I remember, and did all of those things. Being  kid was so much fun. You got to run through the sprinkler, have your parents make you PB&J everyday after school, and just be free. Nowadays summer jobs keep us away from the sprinklers, we have to make our own food and we seem to be chained to homework for several hours a day. But that's not the only thing we left behind. It was the innocence and the pigtails and the constant laughter. Boys still had cooties so we never suffered a single heartbreak. The highest we ever got was swinging at the playground. We only sucked lollipops. But now? Our lives are spiraled in directions we could never have imagined. Little kids I play with or babysit always tell me how they want to be a big teenager and have cool teenage lives. It's so hard for me to just sit there are smile gently at them. They're so full of hope and love. I sit up and night and think about how I wish I could just go back to it all. Back to when my heart was full and bursting. Back to when I cared about nothing except getting a barbie for Christmas. Back when I got shy just holding a guys hand. And back to when I only cried because I fell off my bike...

Screw Seniors, Sophmores Need A Break Too!

Who says school flu has to be limited to seniors? They're only two years older than us, why should they get any special treatment?! Although we will expect it when we are seniors ourselves (: Now back to the point! It is early May and we over worked. Some of us drowning in essays from English class. Others are about to snap at their biology teachers, namely me. But when have I ever not wanted to kill him? Anywho! I just looked at the calender and we get like one or two more days off of school FOR THE NEXT TWO MONTHS! Can any of us handle that? I don't think so. It's starting to get sunny and the girls are pulling out those booty shorts again. This means an equal distraction to the guys as well. No one wants to be stuck inside on a beautiful day learning about quadratic equations or the process of evolution. And tell me, who honestly wants to hear Mr. Stearns say we can't go outside on yet another pretty Monday because he has a stick up his ass? I would honestly focus so much better if I could read on the grass of the field. Think about it. Either we ask the school for more off days or just do classes outside! With all the time spent off in the winter, you'd think the administration would have some sort of heart to let us have more fun in the sun! Especially given that our summer is just barely two months long. I know kids that are getting out on May 15th. So many students at Shorewood are just begging for a sun day (Get it? sunny day=sun day, similar to snow day. Whatever. I'm lame.) But yes, we need more days off. Or some type of cure to the sophmore version of senioritis. Need to think up a name for it... Soon it's gonna be June and the shorts are gonna get shorter while the binders get thicker. It's just not fair. And then they expect us to focus on finals?! Whatta bunch whatta bunch...

What If?

I think this basically speaks for itself. I don't know why, but last night I was laying awake and staring at the ceiling when all of sudden that night came rushing back into my head. And like I do with all things I sat there and dissected it far more than probably was necessary. Also like everything these days it's hard to explain exactly why I put all that thought into it. I do agree with you. I don't feel as much of a connection as there was before. I'm moving on to the next thing and am more than happy to be just friends. But I have a tendency to think 'what if' with just about everything. So what would have happened if I had kissed you? Would we be together? Would we have realized we were actually better off friends? I mean what? And before you get on your high horse and judge me, I know that everyone thinks 'what if' about something in their life. Even if it's the smallest thing like 'what if I had gotten to the coffee shop one second later, would I still have spilled my mocha all over me?' So many people like to act all high and mighty and be like 'I live with no regrets! Take that bitches.' I just don't understand it. I have made so many mistakes, so many regrets. And yes, all of those have turned me into the person I am today. Maybe I wouldn't have learned as much in life if I hadn't made those mistakes. Who the hell knows? But I still regret my actions in one way or another. So when people say that it just frusturates me. No one likes living with the regret of not saying something or acting in a different way than they should have. So what makes you all special to say I live with no regrets? I honestly want to know so maybe one day I can be the kid walking down the street saying that I've lived my life to it's fullest potential and mistakes crammed in every now and again but I have no regrets. So tell me please! Actually, maybe you're just bumping along to a Bobby McFerrin song, one of my faves, 'Don't Worry Be Happy.' If so then I guess I can't blame you. It does have a very catchy and chill beat about it. If you're wondering why I brought it up it's because it just started playing on my iTunes.