Sorry if I've been behind on my postings. It's been a hell of a couple of weeks and lately I barely have time to sit down and do a Myspace survey let alone write a blog post or two. But I'm gonna try to do it more often now. I promise my Katie Bug (: Anyways you're probably wondering why I picked the PostSecret that I did. If you weren't, then I guess you're just a smart cookie eh? Anyways, as I'm sure that you know I'm not a virgin. I've had sex. With more than one guy too. *GASP* I know, how shocking that a teenager would have sex. It's just horrible isn't. I mean I obviously must be a dirty skank. Wrong. I'm sorry if I make a choice that goes against your opinions or beliefs. But I'm not going to stop doing something just because you, whoever you are, is against what I do with MY time. Excuse for not realizing that my sex life was any of your concern. Oopsie. But I will definitely keep that in mind next time I make a personal decision, I'll be sure to let you know. Well I seem to be getting off of topic here, so let's start the real entry shall we? Basically as a teenage girl we know that teenage boys think about sex only once every three seconds right? So we should be expecting that they try to get some if they ask to hang out or even date us. But yet most of us act so surprised when we make decisions that we have to know will get us into a "complicated" situation. I think it's total bullshit, you just want sympathy. Face it, if you hang out with a guy who is an asshole and uses women then he'll probably try and use you. Now you may be sitting there and calling me a hypocrite. But I'm not. I happen to know exactly what I'm getting myself into when I enter into those different situations. Yeah, I regret almost everytime afterwards especially with a certain situation. It is what I wanted at that time. And hey, I was single. Who the hell are you to judge me as a girl for doing that while I was single but not the guy. He was single too. He fooled around with me. So why is he not called a whore? Why do his "friends" not make jokes at his expense? Why isn't he the one forcing a laugh when people comment on it when he really doesn't find it all that funny? (In fact I'd bet he would be hurting everytime someone made a remark about it, but that's just me.) I don't know the answer to any of those questions, but I do know that it isn't fair. In the long run it won't matter, he was just one of the many jerks I'll run into over the years. And he'll leave just like all the others. Because he was a jerk I'll shrug it off and move on. I always do. But it's the ones that I care about that kill me. I take things slow, not always physically, but emotionally. It takes a bit of time for me to let a guy in and have me trust him pretty much fully. I know have an agreement with myself that I won't have sex/going to third base with a guy unless I'm sure he won't leave me right afterwards. That has happened so many times that I finally just stopped getting into a relationship and started just fooling around with people who I knew didn't care about me and I knew I didn't care about them. But I want to start over. Yeah, I'm down for still messing around and stuff, just with someone I know and trust more than the guys in my past. I don't know. It may not make sense to you guys. But it does to me.
5.21.2009
Finally
Sorry if I've been behind on my postings. It's been a hell of a couple of weeks and lately I barely have time to sit down and do a Myspace survey let alone write a blog post or two. But I'm gonna try to do it more often now. I promise my Katie Bug (: Anyways you're probably wondering why I picked the PostSecret that I did. If you weren't, then I guess you're just a smart cookie eh? Anyways, as I'm sure that you know I'm not a virgin. I've had sex. With more than one guy too. *GASP* I know, how shocking that a teenager would have sex. It's just horrible isn't. I mean I obviously must be a dirty skank. Wrong. I'm sorry if I make a choice that goes against your opinions or beliefs. But I'm not going to stop doing something just because you, whoever you are, is against what I do with MY time. Excuse for not realizing that my sex life was any of your concern. Oopsie. But I will definitely keep that in mind next time I make a personal decision, I'll be sure to let you know. Well I seem to be getting off of topic here, so let's start the real entry shall we? Basically as a teenage girl we know that teenage boys think about sex only once every three seconds right? So we should be expecting that they try to get some if they ask to hang out or even date us. But yet most of us act so surprised when we make decisions that we have to know will get us into a "complicated" situation. I think it's total bullshit, you just want sympathy. Face it, if you hang out with a guy who is an asshole and uses women then he'll probably try and use you. Now you may be sitting there and calling me a hypocrite. But I'm not. I happen to know exactly what I'm getting myself into when I enter into those different situations. Yeah, I regret almost everytime afterwards especially with a certain situation. It is what I wanted at that time. And hey, I was single. Who the hell are you to judge me as a girl for doing that while I was single but not the guy. He was single too. He fooled around with me. So why is he not called a whore? Why do his "friends" not make jokes at his expense? Why isn't he the one forcing a laugh when people comment on it when he really doesn't find it all that funny? (In fact I'd bet he would be hurting everytime someone made a remark about it, but that's just me.) I don't know the answer to any of those questions, but I do know that it isn't fair. In the long run it won't matter, he was just one of the many jerks I'll run into over the years. And he'll leave just like all the others. Because he was a jerk I'll shrug it off and move on. I always do. But it's the ones that I care about that kill me. I take things slow, not always physically, but emotionally. It takes a bit of time for me to let a guy in and have me trust him pretty much fully. I know have an agreement with myself that I won't have sex/going to third base with a guy unless I'm sure he won't leave me right afterwards. That has happened so many times that I finally just stopped getting into a relationship and started just fooling around with people who I knew didn't care about me and I knew I didn't care about them. But I want to start over. Yeah, I'm down for still messing around and stuff, just with someone I know and trust more than the guys in my past. I don't know. It may not make sense to you guys. But it does to me.
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